Anxiety isn’t so Bad, Sometimes.

By Renzo Guevara
Anxiety isn’t so Bad, Sometimes.
I consider myself an anxious person. I worry a lot, I overthink a lot, I’m conscious a lot, among other things. Being aware of every moment and every detail can be a handful. Do I hate it? Sometimes. Do I like it as well? Oh, definitely.

I worry a lot.

Anxiety sucks . I don’t exactly know how to explain it in a definitive statement. One day it’s worrying about what’s going to happen and then the next it’s being confused for no reason.

It’s a million other things all at once.

Being concerned about a lot can get very overwhelming. It’s not as simple as worrying because you did something wrong or because someone is angry at you. It’s thinking that what you do will never be good enough, or how the next person you’re talking to will not like what you have to say, or sometimes even worrying about something but, you don’t exactly know what.

There are a lot of ways that help reduce the uneasiness. Mediation, relaxation, hobby distraction, social therapy, etc. Needless to say, there’s a lot of bad conceptions about it.

Even though it can be a heavy burden, I’d like to use it sometimes to my advantage. My favorite f orm of anxiety? Deadlines. Without those suckers, I probably would have finished writing this maybe a week from now. There’s nothing to be scared of if I don’t finish it immediately so why bother?

You can’t tell me you haven’t done crunch work with anything in your life. When I heard my teacher say that we couldn’t cram the report, I almost took it as a challenge. Sometimes, I find myself to be the most productive because of the deadline. It’s motivation at extreme levels.

Worrying about something allows me to take it more seriously. It’s uncomfortable but, if I don’t allow it to overpower me, it won’t be dangerous. It’s like cockroaches. I’m worried if I see one and as soon as that thing starts flying, I’m turning into an olympic sprinter running for my life. Thus, it’s not a danger to me anymore. I hope.

I overthink a lot.

Sure, I sometimes go overboard with the thoughts in my brain. Maybe I’ll feel like every output I produce isn’t worth anything, or maybe I think my boss doesn’t like me, or I think my dog doesn’t love me anymore after refusing to offer his belly for me to rub.

The voices in your head can get loud.

Although, as a creative, it’s rare that I find something bad in being meticulous about details. It’s all about using anxiety to help you achieve whatever it is you’re trying to achieve.

You think the first draft isn’t good enough? Go through it again and you might find something better. Feel like you’re not being healthy? Change up the diet. Worried about the day because you have no idea what to do? Go talk to a co-worker or maybe even your manager. They might need help with something. Something feels off about what’s being offered to you? Listen to your gut, it may have saved you from a scam. It’s okay to acknowledge, or even welcome the thoughts.

“Fear doesn’t shut you down; it wakes you up.” - Veronica Roth, Divergent.

I’m conscious a lot. 

Sometimes, I like to poke fun at anxiety and call it “an exaggerated form of awareness”.

It’s like my very own spider-sense.

Anxiety can be viewed as one big natural warning sign from your brain. If you think there’s a booger in your nose, chances are that there is. You feel like your zipper is down? Yup, probably.

Come to think of it, Spider-man’s spider-sense is basically anxiety. Oh my god, his creators are a genius.

Being attentive allows you to prepare for the worst, and hope for the best. Despite all the things that makes it stink, anxiety sure is one heck of a superpower to have.

Make sure you’re heard. Let’s work together.